What to do...

I have been thinking a lot lately about where my life is headed. I have always been told that I have this amazing gift with children and am destined to be a teacher.

What if I do not want to be a Teacher. What if I think the pay sucks? I mean I do and I do not want to be a teacher. I love being around children. I do not like how much you get paid though. I have other talents, teaching is not the only route I can take. Its just the most sensible since I am rather good at it. 

 I have often thought about being a layout designer. I was editor of my yearbook in HS and basically designed my whole book and loved every second of it. Although I feel like there is money in that IF you are really good and are willing to scrape for a little while because you don't hit it big immediately. It takes networking... and that I am not good at. 

Maybe I could be a movie critic. I love movies. And I feel like I have the ability to sit there and vividly describe a  movie well enough as to where people are like yeah I want to see that movie or no I think I will pass. And 9 times out of 10 my review is accurate. But like designing it takes networking.

BAHHH so what do I do? Should I try and step up my game and attempt one of my dream jobs that seem almost impossible... or do I settle on teaching?

I mean I could do a little of both. I guess I could either A. I could be a yearbook advisor that way I am still working with kids BUT I am also able to help create a yearbook. Or B. I could be an elementary school teacher and have a side job designing banner, invitations, posters etc. 

HELP!!

Houston... I have a Problem...

I have a rather unorthodox way of living my life. I strive to have the latest in fashion and technology although only make barely enough to make my bills. 

Did I mention I still live at home?

I mean I could be living in a decent apartment and not have the luxuries that come with my life. I could cut down on my daily trips to Starbucks or my constant purchases on random shit that in the end gets thrown away anyways. But I won't.

Instead I will probably continue living my life paycheck to paycheck. 

To quote my father, I have a "champagne taste on a beer budget."

Sad? Maybe. Pathetic? Probably? Enjoyable? Definitely. 

So I just turned 21 years old. I am making a pretty lousy attempt to get back into the whole college thing. I started my semester taking 4 classes and slowly cut it down to only 2. Like thats a surprise for me. 

Well I am going to re-attempt the whole college thing next semester...

We shall see how that goes.

"Who is rich? He that is content. Who is that? Nobody."

-Benjamin Franklin